|It has to be the two lattes I've had...
||[Mar. 9th, 2009|02:23 am]
The coffee in me won't let me stop... I've got a million different thoughts running in and out of my head...and its a million different thoughts about you....& geology. |
It's very lesbian and actually very creepy, but it's because I care about you. Probably more than John or Milo...well like about equal, milo is a cat. I am just so relieved you didn't hate me. I thought you did. I was so worried. I've got to get this off my chest, because I seriously can't concentrate on my Physical Geology.
So let me say what I have to say- plain and simple, with no dressing.
I think the world of you. I've had some of my best times with you and some of my worst times with you (not that you caused my worst times, but the worst in my life has been shared with you) I can never lose you as a friend. EVER. No one has ever come close in comparison as someone I will value until the day I die. (I even underlined the important parts!)
If you get anything out of this message...is that I'm fucking crazy, but besides that..I don't really know. I guess I have to leave that up to you.
I guess the reason that I am spilling this all over the table is that I actually thought I had lost you. We hadn't talked in two months. It was a dry spell-I think the longest we have ever gone.
When you came to austin it was a little weird...my friends were awkward and we didn't get enough time in my new environment. I guess I felt that you thought I had changed...etc. but I haven't. I really haven't. Actually Caleb says, "Natalie, you haven't changed at all- if anything you are more relaxed." --which is a compliment in my book.
I am assuming this is what you thought, but you thought that you are wrong. I also realize you are very busy, as am I. I understand that. I hope we have one more summer like the old times. Being creepers & that other shit we do. (I know I'm so articulate..)
From Austin to New York City, even thought you are across the country, I know you will always be there for me...and I will always be there for you. PROMISE. I miss you and I truly love you as a friend and even as family. I mean I practically forced your family to love me.
I am going to randomly call your house one day...I mean I'll do it...don't dare me!
I'm rambling now. I love you. Bye.